Dean does apologize for it. But look at how, exactly, he apologizes: “Sam, I wanna tell you I'm sorry. I've been kind of hard on you lately.[...]It's just that your, uh, your psychic thing, it scares the crap out of me.”
I think his acknowledgement that he is afraid is true. I think Dean's actions in Metamorphosis are based very much on fear.
But let's look at the rest of the apology. Dean apologizes for having been “hard” on Sam. What are the implications of that?
“Hard” implies overcritical, expecting too much, being too harsh.
I should have softened things for you because I love you.
“Hard” does not imply inaccurate, untrue, or wrong.
“Hard” kind of implies “righteous”, in a way. But going too far.
I was righteous but I should not have treated you that way because I love you. If I didn’t love you, I would want to hunt you.
Dean is not, actually, contradicting his statement that if he didn't know Sam, he would want to hunt him.
In Citizen Fang, when Sam said, “You’re too close to this”, he was not articulating a deeply hidden fear. He was articulating a desperate desire.
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