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Every piece of fanfiction that I've written under this identity.

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Riley and Faith

This started with some thoughts I had on how Buffy's reluctance to talk about Angel played a role in the disintegration of both her relationships with Riley and Faith.

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Animated Icon - Redone

This is a new version of the first animated icon I made, because the original turned out to be waaaaay too dark. Hopefully, this will turn out better.

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Bad, in Latin

Remember that time Malcolm Reynolds told Simon Tam that if Mal ever killed him Simon would be awake, facing Mal, and armed?

And then the very next episode Mal kicked a bound and unarmed man into the engine intakes and killed him?

Good times.


Not when he looked so fierce...

Sometimes when I listen to "The Continuing Story of Bungalow Bill", I wonder if John Lennon stopped writing third person songs because he found them too revealing.


So this is about Faith.

Or maybe it's about Buffy. I'm not quite sure.

I was originally planning on having better organization to these thoughts, but I didn't like my initial plan, and making new one would be, like, work. So, it's a little scattered.

This is about how the bad slayer/good slayer dichotomy contributed to Faith's turn to evil. This is also about the ways in which Buffy's actions contributed to Faith's turn to evil.

This isn't an argument that Buffy was mean and rejecting to Faith and therefore it's totally understandable that Faith would run to the mayor. Buffy wasn't mean and rejecting to Faith. She wasn't a perfect little saint, but she was very kind to Faith.

That's actually part of the problem.

In my experience, we in fandom have a tendency to focus on blame. Don't get me wrong, I love blame! The sci-fi/fantasy TV shows I enjoy are full of characters making horrible choices. By all means, blame away.

But sometimes this blame prevents people from analyzing what actually happened. Why characters made the choices they made. How they react to each other, influence each other. Obsessing over what was who's fault can make it hard to see the complexities of a situation. If a conversation between two fans turns into an argument over which character wronged which character the most...well, there's a lot that a conversation like that is going to overlook, no matter how smart and respectful the fans in question are.

One more thing to think about before I start: Suppose someone says or does something the can only interpreted as good and fair. I'm not talking about a bad thing disguised as good and fair, but something genuinely good and fair. And this interaction leaves you feeling bad and dirty, even if you haven't done anything wrong, or haven't done anything that wrong...

Who is at fault? Are you at fault, for feeling attacked when you aren't? Are they at fault, for making you feel bad? Is anyone at fault?

So. A handful of thoughts about the good slayer and the bad slayer.

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Buffy Season 2 Icons

22 icons from Buffy the Vampire Slayer season two. Feel free to take, just comment and credit.

Icon table generated by sql_girl's Icon Table Generator, which you can find here.

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I've been read reading posts in gabrielleabelle's livejournal. I've had a particular interest lately in her feminist posts, such as The Feminist Filter, wherein gabrielleabelle and her friends analyze each episode of Buffy from a feminist perspective (unfortunately, it only gets as far as the S7 episode Homecoming, since gabs has left the fandom). These posts are absolutely awesome, and you should check them out if you haven't before.

However, when I read the comments on the posts, there is a definite Spike bias. Spike gets a lot of praise, Xander and Angel get a lot of criticism. This is understandable. The vast majority of the posters on gab's lj are/were Spike fans, and Buffy/Spike shippers. We all have our biases. Furthermore, there was some very intelligent criticism of Spike from Spike fans, and there were some very vocal fans who stepped in to defend Xander and Angel. Sometimes to the point of distracting from the feminist intention of the series. Still, the overall bias was there.

This got me thinking. What are the feminist aspects of Angel and Xander and their arcs? What are the anti-feminist aspects of Spike and his arcs?

This post isn't about Angel and Xander. It's about Spike. It's basically an anti-feminist interpretation of his redemption arc and relationship with Buffy. This has been done before, of course--there are plenty of fans out there who hate that Spike was redeemed, and can't stand Buffy/Spike. Nonetheless, I wanted to do it myself as a thought experiment.

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Angels With Dirty Faces Icons

Not exactly back, but creating icons and sharing them is one of my joys. Given that these icons are from a somewhat obscure 1938 James Cagney gangster flick, I doubt that many people will appreciate them, but I still want to share. Feel free to take--just credit and comment.

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Fandom Hiatus

Thought I should drop a line to let you all know that I’m taking a break from fandom. I’m currently between jobs, and I don’t think that’s a good mental state for me to be interacting with fandom. I hope you all are well.