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Every piece of fanfiction that I've written under this identity.

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Buffy S4 Icons

15 icons from Buffy the Vampire Slayer season four.

Feel free to take, just comment and credit.

Icon table from sql_girl's Icon Table Generator.
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Dated Stories

It's very strange when you love and connect with a story or with music that was made before you were born, and then you encounter someone online saying that this story is dated and was only enjoyable in the context of its time.

I've heard this said about quite a lot of media, including "I Am the Walrus" (the Beatles' song), the original Spider-Man comics by Stan Lee and Steve Ditko, and the Watchmen graphic novel. All stories that meant a great deal to me at the time I discovered it and which I still love to this day. All of which first came out before I was born.

This makes me skeptical of the entire concept of stories becoming "dated".

I do think there are some media (like this delightful Simon and Garfunkel song) that contain so many references to contemporary events that a person simply can’t understand them without being familiar with the context.

But then, is understanding the same as enjoyment? After all, people love the Bible and apply to their own lives, while large parts of it are only understandable if you know about the context in which is written. I love the book of Ecclesiastes in ways that have nothing to do with understanding the world in which it was written. While I disagree with the vast majority of biblical interpretations, but I don’t think people are mistaken or wrong when they say they enjoy it and connect to it. Despite the fact that most of these people don't know much about the context in which is was written.

The Bible is one of the most "dated" books in the world, and yet look at its reputation in Christian-heavy cultures.

I sometimes wonder if claiming that something is "dated" is a way of holding onto the myth that "classic" media was better than modern media. I've always assumed the reason people think, for example, that 1930s and 1940s movies were better than modern movies, is because people usually see only the good movies from that era, and not the crap. And when they do encounter the crap, they can just say that it's "dated".

I recall someone once referring to the Dead End Kids as "dated". The Dead End Kids were a group of actors/characters who played/were a group of young hoodlum characters. They appeared in theater and film from the 1930s to the 1950s. I've only seen them in one film (a gangster flick called Angels With Dirty Faces), but that's enough for me to tell you this: The Dead End Kids are not dated. The Dead End Kids suck. They sucked in 1938, and they suck now.

One day people will describe Twilight as dated. And still, there will be people who read it and enjoy it and connect to it. But this I believe: Twilight will never be "dated". Twilight will suck, because Twilight already sucks.

I Know You'll Never Love Me

Whenever I see someone complaining that BtVS S6 "ruined Spuffy", I think: "What was there to ruin?" Season 5 was the season of Spike the stalker with a one-sided obsession, and a Buffy who found the idea of being involved with Spike disgusting. That is, once a third party pointed out to her that Spike had feelings for her, something that previously had not even crossed her mind as a possibility despite some hints so obvious that during my first watch I kept thinking that she must have figured it out and was just ignoring it. And when at the end of Intervention Buffy does start to see a different side to Spike, she's far too caught up in her mother's death and protecting Dawn to pay Spike much in the way of attention or thought.

I shipped Buffy/Spike long before S6, but After Life is the first episode where I can actually see them as a couple, no matter how dysfunctional. After Life is the first episode where I can see Buffy having a real investment in the relationship. Where they establish a deep connection that is not just in Spike's mind. For me, After Life is where Spuffy begins.


Sam, Interrupted is my least favorite episode in terms of how it portrays Dean's angst. Which given how many SPN episodes deal with Dean angst in one way or another, really means something.

By contrast, Defending Your Life is one my favorites.
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Random Meme

Meme from around. You give me a fandom (see tags for some of the possibilities), and I tell you eleven things:

The character I least understand
Interactions I enjoyed the most
The character who scares me the most
The character who is mostly like me
Hottest looks character
One thing I dislike about my favorite character
One thing I like about my hated character
A quote or scene that haunts me
A death that left me indifferent
A character I wish died but didn’t
My ship that never sailed

You are tagged if you want to be.




Anyone I have ever spoken to who has read that book is on notice.
I spent so much time trying to figure out why Sam thinks he's inherently awful that the obvious didn't occur to me.

Maybe Sam is inherently awful.

"It doesn't matter what you are. It only matters what you do."

Brief SPN S8 thought

Sam’s big fear is not that Benny is going to steal Dean away from him, but that Benny is a better person than he is. For once, a monster resisting its monstrous nature is not an inspiration for Sam. It’s a mockery. That maybe Benny treats Dean better than he does, that maybe Benny is worthy of Dean’s trust in a way that he could never be.


Sam's nickname of "Sammy" has a lot of complicated implications. I've seen fans try to oversimplify it to both extremes: That it's a nickname of pure affection, or one of pure contempt. But it appears to me that the way it's used on the show, primarily by Dean, is more complicated than that.

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